I am so glad I am not the only one out there doing this. Recording the events and experiences and then sharing them in hopes of finding others going through the same thing. By ‘same thing’, I mean the heartache, confusion and crap that comes along with being triggered into awakening by your Twin Flame into a Twin Flame Journey.
I had never heard of the term ‘twin flame’ ever in my life. I sorta knew what a soulmate was and that was it. A soulmate, to me, was just the person you are supposed to be with for the rest of your lives. But, twin flame? Nothing.
It was not until I started experiencing some bat shit crazy symptoms all at once that had everyone who knew me thinking I was some crazy, Bipolar, obsessed stalker. I thought I was, too. I was told that when I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 1999. I had to take mood stabilizers my entire life to ‘manage’ my symptoms of breaking into tears for no reason at all after being happy a minute ago. Toss in an anti-depressant and whoa, what a great cocktail to help dull your mind and your inner consciousness.
That is exactly what stopping a 1000mg a night for 7 years regimen of Seroquel did to me. It dulled the natural intuition I have always had. My mother has it. She would always know when someone was calling before the phone rang. And it would have been weeks or months since the last time she’d heard from them. She always knew when i was lying to her. Always. I was a pretty good actress, too. Ask my friends growing up. My mom just KNEW things sometimes. But, she never flaunted it. She kept it quiet like it was no big deal and called it her ESP working. I never had the gifts like she did, or at least I didn’t think I did.
Fast forward to early 2017 and I was noticing some way out odd things were happening in my life and kind of all of the sudden. I had stopped taking medication a couple years prior and the symptoms I was experiencing were not always in my head. They were happening in my real life. Physical signs and syncronicities. They say coincidence is God in disguise. Well I ask you, how many coincidences does it take before you have to realize the Universe is trying to tell you something? For me, I had to stop counting. There were that many odd coincidences popping up all around me and I wanted to document as much as I could to show others I wasn’t that fucking nuts.
So, whenever I just happened to glance at my phone and noticed I had repeating numbers, I would try and grab a snapshot. There were times I couldn’t just grab a picture either. I would be at the local sports bar having a beer and watching their many televisions posted up and I was seeing 44 on players backs for just a brief second on any game that was on. Then, I would notice a 44 on a car license plate leaving the bar. What time was it? It was always something 44. 4:44, 2:44, 3:44, 5:44, 6:44, you know what I mean.
I want to share my experiences with everyone out there going through a twin flame journey. My hope is to give help and some peace of mind to the collective when they are struggling with their Awakening.
And believe me, these symptoms are a bitch. You do think you are going crazy.
You’re not. I started doing my research after experiencing and documenting things after almost 6 months and that is how I discovered the term ‘twin flame.’ This blog is how I am going to put this shit on blast. 🙂
This is real.