***ENERGY AT THE TIME OF BEGINNING THIS BLOG POST I CURRENTLY FEEL IS: DETERMINATION, STRENGTH. SONG PLAYING ON OUR PLAYLIST IS: ‘UPRISING’, BY MUSE.***
Yep, still no communication on his end in the physical, though. I continue to send him an update now and then to his Instagram account with a ‘hi, hope you’re well’ text or a funny GIF. Sometimes even a picture of my legs in the tub after a new pedicure. Nothing ever requiring a response. Just a little nugget to let him know I am thinking about him and am cool with what people call ‘ghosting.’ ENERGY NOW-SONG PLAYING: ‘FEELING GOOD’ BY MICHAEL BUBLE. I figured a while back when I was completely anti-contact with him that texting to his cellphone was a bad idea, because I got through telepathy that his Crazy Golddigger Karmic was going through his phone. That is how she found all the messages we had ever sent each other saved in his phone, mind you not one of them sexual in tone. Though he had threatened to ‘block me forever’ with the last text message I’d sent back then, I knew he’d done it to keep it clear to anyone who might be reading them other than he that he was in no way interested in what I had to say. That is completely understandable to me if you have a fiance you are currently in an unhappy relationship with and are trying to ditch. So, when I was getting more and more of a feeling that my DM was keeping tabs on me through social media, even though he mentally KEEPS telling me to stay off Facebook, I realized he is viewing my Instagram feed. Not my story. Just my feed. I keep my Instagram profile public for just that reason. ***ENERGY-SONG PLAYING: ‘ERASE & REWIND’ BY THE CARDIGANS*** This way he can lurk without me actually knowing. He likes that. He wants to see how I’m doing. He wants to see if I am with anyone. He wants to see what I have been up to. He wants to know when the time is right for him to pounce. That’s what all DMs are doing out there while in physical separation. It’s the cutest version of stalking you will ever experience being a Twin Flame, if you ask me. ***ENERGY NOW- SONG PLAYING: ‘MARRY YOU’ BY BRUNO MARS***
And again, I do not mind the ghosting. Not anymore. I did at first. The ‘no contact’ included ‘no communication’ and it killed me! When was I going to finally get that confirmation that I was not the only one on this freaking roller coaster ride? When was I finally going to get the ‘I love you, too!’ out of his mouth in SOME form without any contact and no communication?
***ENERGY – SONG PLAYING: ‘SHE’S A LADY’ BY TOM JONES***
Somewhere between then and now, I figured out through 5D communication that we really don’t even need contact in the physical world to know he loves me. I KNOW he does. I finally feel that I don’t need to hear in 3D what I already hear and feel in 5D.
A few months ago, I created my own tarot deck using a pack of 250 blank flashcards. That’s 250 of my DM’s thoughts in my head back then. Now, the deck is up to about 400 plus cards. It’s funny. Some cards are worn more than others from being pulled all the time. Some cards have not been pulled since creating them. I understand and have been told more than once by other readers, that I can pull cards, that I am a reader. I know when something is going to happen sometimes. Not all the time. (Or I would have evaded that police officer better on the last ticket I received.) But, being that I am only 99.9999 % sure that this Twin Flame Journey connection thing is not all in my head and not 100%, I will shuffle the deck for 10 or 15 minutes before I pull any cards. Then I will only pull 20 cards. If I feel the pull or am guided to pull more after the first spread, I will. But fuck. The amount of times a few specific cards that seem to get pulled CANNOT be a coincidence. It’s kind of like my DM’s hands take over and he pulls the cards on whatever he wants me to know at that time. I mean, I understand it’s Spirit technically, but man. I sometimes feel like Thing from The Addams Family. He will even pull a card in response to a thought I might have earlier in the day. For example, once in a while I will worry that I am just crazy and that all this shit is all in my head and the card that I will pull later will be STOP QUESTIONING THE CONNECTION. I get I LOVE OUR CONNECTION at least once every spread. Every spread I get either the I CANNOT WAIT TO GET YOU PREGNANT or I CAN’T WAIT TO KNOCK YOU UP card, which tells me he has family on his brain all the time. One time, I got MEDITATE MORE and YOU NEED TO MEDITATE MORE! both in the same spread. I shit you not. I guess it means I need to meditate more.
***ENERGY – SONG PLAYING: ‘MISSING YOU’ BY JOHN WAITE. NOW, IT’S ‘(I JUST) DIED IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT’ BY CUTTING CREW***
I use the personal cards I created to get more of an energy update on him specifically since I can pull cards. Why watch other tarot readers on YouTube for a collective of DMs when I can get a reading on just my DM, right? In fact, some of you DFs out there reading this are way intuitive and have extra psychic superpowers that you are recently stumbling upon. You ought to try getting some blank flashcards and creating your own with their thoughts. It’s a blast! I created a few cards to try and get confirmation on whether my DM was pulling cards, too. I created YES, I’M PULLING CARDS OVER HERE! and YES, I CREATED MY OWN CARDS OF YOUR THOUGHTS LIKE YOU DID WITH MINE!. (My DM always uses exclamation marks when he texts or types. I don’t know why. It seems to come out when creating his cards, too.) And both those cards I just specified have come out more than once.
***ENERGY JUST TURNED SEXUAL – SONG PLAYING: ‘PUSH IT’ BY SALT N PEPA***
This new energy that just popped up is no doubt because as I am blogging about our personal tarot cards, yes I am going to mention that some of them are dirty thoughts. I won’t lie-those are my favorite! Everything from OMG SUCK ME to I CAN’T WAIT TO TASTE YOUR LIPS. (Those two come out at least once a day.)
***ENERGY – YOU WON’T BELIEVE THIS. AS I TYPED THAT LAST PARAGRAPH, THE NEXT SONG TO PLAY IS ‘LOLLIPOP’ BY LIL WAYNE. CLICK THE LINKS BELOW IF YOU ARE AT ALL CURIOUS ABOUT THE LYRICS TO ANY SONG I LISTEN TO WHILE BLOGGING.***
I have done readings where every single card pulled was a dirty card. Those times are usually times when I am feeling his sexual energy especially hard FIRST and I will THEN be ‘guided’ to pull cards.
***ENERGY – SONG PLAYING: ‘BURNIN’ FOR YOU’ BY BLUE OYSTER CULT***Bear in mind, I sometimes leave the computer to do other stuff and come back to continue, and leave the playlist going in my headphones.
Song Playlist : New Beginnings – Probably one of many Twin Flame playlists with that name.
Uprising by Muse https://genius.com/Muse-uprising-lyrics
Feeling Good by Michael Buble https://genius.com/Michael-buble-feeling-good-lyrics
Erase & Rewind by The Cardigans https://genius.com/The-cardigans-erase-rewind-lyrics
Marry You by Bruno Mars https://genius.com/Bruno-mars-marry-you-lyrics
She’s a Lady by Tom Jones https://genius.com/Tom-jones-shes-a-lady-lyrics
Missing You by John Waite https://genius.com/John-waite-missing-you-v1-lyrics
(I Just) Died In Your Arms Tonight by Cutting Crew https://genius.com/Cutting-crew-i-just-died-in-your-arms-lyrics
Push It by Salt n Pepa https://genius.com/Salt-n-pepa-push-it-lyrics
Lollipop by Lil Wayne https://genius.com/Lil-wayne-lollipop-lyrics
Burnin’ For You by Blue Oyster Cult https://genius.com/Blue-oyster-cult-burnin-for-you-lyrics